Relationships

Ever felt those butterflies in your tummy when the guy you are crushing on finally asks you out? Do you ever feel like everything is so beautiful in the world because he holds your hand in the classrooms? And when his lips touch yours for the first time, do you ever just drift of into another world where everything is perfect. At first you promise yourself you won't get too attached because you have seen how destructive relationships have been around you. But slowly he makes you believe that he could never ever hurt you, make promises to you and always make you feel better when you are upset. He will travel distances to meet you and listen to you talk on the phone for hours, maybe even days. No one in the world will take your place in his heart. Then you realize that you need to give him more, give him all the love and all the time you could ever give him. You start to ditch your friends and your priorities to meet him or message him. He spend hours on handmade gifts and beautiful love letters to show him how much he means to you. Slowly it's like no one can break you both apart and it feels like this will last for a very long time. It's so wonderful to create these memories with him and be so happy, like you have never been happy before. But then he starts loosing interest and his messages start to become more dull, he makes time for others and not you. When you call and cry he just comforts you to shut you up. Slowly he starts to hurt you and when you are so broken you just want his time and to talk to him, because he was your best friend. He was the only one who truly understood you and tolerated your faults. But when you go to him with all your pain and try to fix it, he looks at you and says don't worry I will be fine. And for that moment you feel like it will be beautiful again. Then he sends you a message saying that he can't do this anymore. He says that he can't hurt you and doesn't and doesn't want to continue hurting you, so it's best to be apart. The amount of times you must have wanted to end things but you never really did because you could never stop loving him starts flashing before your eyes. The amount you do to keep him happy and keep your relationship afloat makes you not understand what he means by "I can't do this anymore". What about all the things you have done even though you felt like you couldn't do it anymore, what about those promises and the endless love you gave him? You can't understand how your tears are being punished by a break up. Then you start to think how is this fair :( after everything you have done after waiting for so long and just wanting him, how can he just cut of like this.